Soldiers on the front

Mothers crying

Innocents lost

The bodies are piling

And from state to state

The state remains the same

Distress

She's a bitch of a mistress

Creating fatherless men

Who leave father less men

To fend

for themselves

Silence remains in the halls of our schools

But our streets are satisfied

Teenage soon to be mothers homeless

Selling dignity for less than a meal

And the nation has had its fill

Of immigrants

Who hed like to deport

But without them we  cant

Function and be one

We are not unified

Twenty one ..salute

 If you make it that far

Dying young

thats what we have come to know

Mentally

Emotionally

Physically

may you be in peace ...

ONE NATION ONE VOICE BUT WE DIE A THOUSAND DEATHS

I want to find the inner peace to

Find my souls calm release

Day by day I search to find

Answer to the reason why

But now I am beginning to see that im

stuck in the past still moving on

Unable to turn down the volume of my sad song

I hear my angels but see the demons

And let them lead me away from salvation

dragging temptation

for the cure

That does not cure but makes me more insecure

more dependant upon

That which is unnecessary

And has no bearing

other than to bring me lower after the moments past

depending for a quick fix not to ment to last

emotional heroine

my ups then my downs

Shooting up my soul with a right now

fixation

I am strong enough to live to overcome

But let the past freeze me

 I  feel so numb

Numb

To the antidote that best suits the need

To slit my wrist and watch my emotions bleed

And feel the sensation of my inner peace my calm release

 Of Letting go

why am i compelled evry moment of evryday
to express this feeling that is so
abstact and vague
i have no words to say that justify the
feeling that surges through out my veins
it comforts me
at times darkness does not heed
washes away my souls tears like footsteps
on a beach
each minutes passes rapidly at the slowest
pace
anticipating the luminous day that we stand face to face
inamorato
my lover my friend
tranquility from the thought of this distances end

I'm here trin to figure out a way to get away to leave this pain behind

in the dark

i sit

cant get enough  

but with it i feel sick

like my herorine when ur deep within, my immortal sin

just to touch you smell you kiss you 

relasping when i miss you 

how can this be that all you wanna do is hurt me

tru to you true to the love the life i have to live i want to relinquish the thought of you and i but it makes my world unsatisfied

out of order to let it burn is what i should have done

just to bury the passion so that when my tears fall like rain it would blossom again

that is how you doit right? break me down and try to bring me up just so you can later crush touch and be up and be on ur way?

my heart is severed and you carry it with you forever but what i gotta know is why would you accept the gift of me when you knew we would never be?!

captivate my memory

leave a vivid impression on my soul

with your words the words

that thing you cant control

the words that have no sound 

the aura the vibe the silence in ur sentance

and the deep meaning in the end

not to metion the tone of the unspoken voice

the unwritten word

the way you look the way walk the things you do

your actions your unspoken words

they speak at the tone of a whisper heard through the mountain across the sea and from land to land

the unspoken word that is just the touch of ur hand a gaze in my eyes

and i know.. 

its real i love you

but do i need to say the phrase

that is obviously shown in you in i through sacrafice make it work and join two as we become one life

 

Claustrophobic

these very emotions overcrowd me

suffocating the air i breathe

pain of love

death of you

resurection

i am someone you never knew

never took the time to spend time

never cared enough to asked why

still forgivin

i am cleansed in the blood of the lamb

my god

oh my god is

beyond that which is him

savior

intoxicated to the point of delusion

i dont know where i am

this reflection stares back in a whole new way

is this me

or am i now pretending to be

for the sake of normality

permutation

the false representaion of self

not only within but also without

Soldiers on the front

Mothers crying

Innocents lost

The bodies are piling

And from state to state

The state remains the same

Distress

She's a bitch of a mistress

Creating fatherless men

Who leave father less men

To fend

for themselves

Silence remains in the halls of our schools

But our streets are satisfied

Teenage soon to be mothers homeless

Selling dignity for less than a meal

And the nation has had its fill

Of immigrants

Who hed like to deport

But without them we cant

Function and be one

We are not Unified

Twenty one ..salute

 If you make it that far

Dying young

thats what we have come to know

Mentally

Emotionally

Physically

may you be in peace ...

ONE NATION ONE VOICE BUT WE DIE A THOUSAND DEATHS

damn does the feeling ever change ?
 i am trying so hard but i cannot drink this feeling away
and to say
 i can cope
would be a false statement on my behalf
and its sad to know that when you have nothing left
  its all you ever had
 so now i stand observing the image that i once was
the picture we once portrayed
only to confuse my self on if we should go or stay
clouds of emotion roll through like a monsoon
and the negitive emotion consumes me
unable to breath
 barley able to think
i am at a middle point of the sort
i recognize the way this is going
it scares me that its nothin new and there is nothing i can do
 just let it ride
trying to go back to love
 go back to unconditional
but it seems it more like limited and argumenitive
distracting the unity that took so long to create
can this be fate or is all for a reason
i can safley say
each new chapter brings new season
katrina has hit my world
and flooded this house
devastaion is all that remains

tainted

tainted picture

false hopes

lost memories

days come to pass

and once again reality slips my grasp

i saw a tainted picture

and didnt know it was me

i saw the illusion of what

i could be

tainted images

u do not see me